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N think hard. Is this what I really want? How certain am I n what's the consequences gonna be like? Will I dissapointed alot of people? What am I doing???

Everything at home's getting worse. Mum n dad are sick n under alot of stress from events that I wish I could have helped undo. Things are making me feel so down n depressed n I'm so reluctant to go back to work now. I wanna be here for my mum. She's gone thru more than her fair share. I can't bear to see her go thru all this again. What if this time she can't handle it? All the what ifs running thru my mind is seriously depressing me so bad that I can't even think straight. Maybe if we all just ran away n left. I know it won't solve anything but it could make it better for at least a min right? Right now, I'd rather die.

Eveyones sick at home. :( what a bad holiday for us. Dad had high fever for a week n now he's sprained his ankle. Lamiiz, Aqil n Soup's having high fever too. Mum's having a terrible time caring for e grumpy, clingy n emotional younger ones. Poor her. Been trying to help as much as I can. Sigh. I miss my love. :(

What a sad post.

I know I've been doing alot of this lately. What I don't understand is why?? I'll set my mind up to do something and when it come to doing it, I just don't! It's super frustrating to know yet I can't seem to be able to do anything about it. I'm pissed and sick and tired of feeling this way all the time. What the hell is wrong with me?? Am I that dumb??? If I'm not beautiful and I don't have the brains then what am I? Does anyone know??

Lol. Testing out another iPhone blog app. :p so far I think this looks better. Hmmm decisions decisions.

Haha. Blogging via an iPhone blog app. Let's see if this works. :)